Motherly

I saw how Tokde looked at Abang Ipin and it just broke me. The motherly look yang mixed with emotions yang aku selalu nampak, dari setiap penjuru tiap kali aku stay dekat wad kanak-kanak jaga Hurin dulu, yang buat aku nak angkat muka pun teragak-agak, sesak dalam tangis sendiri. 

And I how I wish I am a good writer, and wise enough to capture the loneliness of mothers and turn it into words. 

Makes me think if I have what it takes to be a good mother. And God knows how much I want to be a mother. I always wanted to be one. I don't care about biological aging, I just want to be a mother. 

11/4/2024 | 2 Syawal 1445H