Stillness of Night

So, i was standing in the middle of nowhere, in the midst of night, longing for the next day to come. I stood there, simply allowing myself to be in the moment, to relish in the music of night, the sounds of the crickets in the background. How I never thought I will miss it whenever I am in the city, how the sound indicates peacefulness and has a languid air to it.

I was staring in the dark, mind miles away, and I was thinking about night walks. How it feels like an intimate act and how I always yearn for it. I made a mental note to employ the very act in my future relationship. It is healthy and carries a depth to it. I couldn't remember the source but our prophet (pbuh) also employed the very same act with his wife, walking with her in the middle of night, talking and discussing about things.

 Sky was dark without any presence of stars, which indicated it might rain again tomorrow. The night gentle breeze came blowing, felt like a soft patting to my cheeks, which made me smile and leaning, left me (already) yearning for the second waves of it. And I was thinking about how much our younger generation are missing out these days, compared to the old times. This very time has made it very challenging for them to simply be in the moment, without comparing, worrying about whatnots. And how it downs to us adults, to teach them how certain things are best enjoyed in the traditional ways.

I finished reading a book on vulnerability last night and it still had me ponder on hope, and what it actually means. I still need time to process about the whole thing as it was new to me. I only know that hope what keeps us going for all this time. 

And how it truly takes courage to be vulnerable, which to spell it out, it's never an easy thing to do, (no surprise) but it's the only way, the first path we need to take to be able to relish in a meaningful life. Because connection is what gives us meaning in life, and what life without meaning? A void, dark, lonely life. We are wired for connection which makes it natural for us wanting to belong. Everything is intricately related. And about being vulnerable, surely we can't be vulnerable with just anyone, and if that happens, it indicates desperation. Those people need to earn it and we need to be sure they can take the weight of the pouring. And how I have some debating thoughts on these two things.

And I am glad to know that my own thoughts on vulnerability wasn't actually diverged from the true meaning of it, and how this book is a huge extension to it.